2nd post

I went on a date with a very attractive girl yesterday, and I made a fool of myself, but she still seemed somewhat interested in me. I was told by a few girls (none of whom are the very attractive one previously mentioned) that I was being far too slow with the relationship, that I was not quite doing my job. They said that it wasn't a good thing to not make a pass at a girl, since that denies the girl the privilege of cuddling or forces the girl to make a move (which apparently is not acceptable, I don't really get this, I think a girl should have to feel at least once the complete terror experiences only when deciding whether or not to move the last few inches placing their arm around their special someone). So I thought about that for most of the concert, since the impression I got from the group of girls was that I would lose my date if I didn't make a move now. I figured that if I made the smallest move possible, that would give me sufficient data to decide whether or not I needed to make a bigger move while not possibly stepping over the line and losing her that way. I decided that the next step was either to put my arm around her or to hold her hand, but neither step seemed less forward than the other. So I kept switching positions between having my hand on my leg and having my elbow on the back of my seat, she noticed my moves and thought it hilarious my lack of ability to commit myself to performing either act. So the entire concert when by without anything more happening than her shoulder touching mine. We discussed this while I walked her home, and she apparently was not going to dump me if I didn't do anything, and now I feel like some sort of cad for making her have to worry the whole concert if she would have to be submitted to my base desires. I feel that I lost her trust in me; as I was walking her home I put my hand in my pocket and she drew her hand away, she thought that I was reaching down to hold her hand.

I don’t think that I will ever follow another person’s advice about any relationship I am in; I just wanted to make sure that I wouldn’t lose the most attractive girl I have ever met before I had to lose her. It would be okay if she decided that she like someone else better, or if we were separated by distance or some other reason, but I don’t want to lose her because she thinks I wasn’t interested in her.

So as not to make this post sound too depressing, she still acted as if she would go out with me again.